firstly, i shall say welcome back to all those who went italy! after seeing my junior giving them such warm welcomes on her blog, i decided that as senior, i should also show my PASSION towards choir. hah.

sorry, putting sports day and wadeva entries aside first..i need to express and release my feelings about today... 2 depressing things happened to me today. both are equally important... haiz. which one should i start??

okok. today was my chemistry test on mole concept, nitrogen, sulphur, metals and QA.
i think it was easier than the previous wan but probably i din study enough. i think i will still fail. i studied alot on metals.. like wad react with wad give wad BUT sort of like din put much focus on the Contact Process and the Haber process.. guess wad? those dat i din focus on came out, those i focussed on carried quite little marks. shit. ( not calling you,ys. heex) and i wrote that Haematite is Fe3O2!! wad the hell. i actually wrote Fe2O3 but i was too flustered and could not balance the equation so i stupidly change it. argh. can go and slam my head against the wall..

next, i was walking with zihui and ailyn from the canteen back to classroom during lunch break and was happily munching on my da bao.
we talked and talked and when i tried to put my bao back into the plastic bag, it dropped out and onto the floor. hooray. wl, i only ate like 3 mouthfuls? my 50 cents...
den the whole day, i kept dropping stuff onto the floor..
dunno wad's wrong with me..
OH no! not parkinson i hope.

okok..now the choir concert photos..
these photos were taken by my sis who was sitting at the side so the angle is a bit off...could not wait for the group photos to be sent to me..i am impatient.hah. will post it when i receive them err...if i have time.

hee..can you spot me?

i think this was the disney movie magic song since rayrin is conducting..

group photo!! thanx guys for coming down!! wad's that on chin ee's head???

my mum, sis and i..ppl say we look like sisters..

haha..ybc peeps.
this was the bouquet they gave me..very nice!! thanx!!
making it into dry flowers..drying them now..
thanx to evryone again..
oh, and by the way, i think i am going too flop my geog test and my mum says i'm grounded if i fail my next chem test.
yupp, so i'm prepared to get grounded. affirmative.
oh no, i am lagging behind in my posts...
i still wanna blog about sports day.. some person who i very bu shuang ( i have been tolerating for a long time liao)..recent activities and so on...
hmmm, have to do mulitple blogging in one day for the next week.
hah.

hmm...
lemme replay to 31st of march....
okok..
this was wad happened during kaleidoscope opening after we went back to class..
we were just playing around.yupp.. heehee.

me and ailyn...trying to kill each other. pls dun be alarmed...we are still friends!

still killing each other...sorry ailyn for kupping your photos..pls forgive me...=]

another shot of yoke san's CUTE face!!!!!

[4]ore head..oh ya, i forgot to mention too....

WE ARE THE OVERALL CHAMPION!!! yeah...our hard work paid off.. top of the school leh.
which means that includes class painting, noticeboard, class blog and even class tee!! hooray!
( and to those who din do anything and turn around to say WE din do anything, go eat shit la)
[ ooops...no dun eat shit. Yoke San deserve the most credit for this championship. she really spent lots of time and effort. thanks ys!!!)
me and zihui the twit. haha.

happy family..
to be continued.

the italy peeps will be leaving tml.
it's been a long time since i felt like this. the previous time was during class when i felt like i could not fit in. now, i feel a little left out not being able to go with the rest to italy. i'm like the only comm member ( other than Xueling but she has jaw problem) who's not going and i feel a little bad.
Many ppl, including teachers have been asking like, " you are going italy right?"
and i have repeated this word so many times, " No."
many have also been coming to ask me why i cant go, den i should go...blah blah.
who doesn't wanna go? it's a once in a lifetime opportunity. A golden chance to perform on an international stage, to perform with other choirs of international standard yet, i'm just gonna let this chance slip away. if i have the money, who would still be staying at home typing all these? i'll be packing to go by now. but, with my parents saving up money for my sis's university study and my end of yr china trip, we're abit tight. how to afford for me to go to italy?
it's not anyone's fault but...there's just a feeling of emptyness lingering within me.
esp after school today when i went home with all those italy peeps and they were talking abt their itinery and all, i just felt very left out and could not fit in. i just could not enter their world and conversation. i felt that i did not belong there.
it's tough. being out of the grp and all...but i guess i will get used to it.
so ppl, stop asking me abt italy ok!! adding salt to my wound.
haiz, going to send them off tml. feel very depressed and lonely. suddenly feel very lost and dun wanna do anything.
hmph. i'll get by.

yesterday was "I'm Gonna Sing" kaleidoscope 2006 and the opening of our school's 50th anniversary. In the morning, we sat around and talked to feng ba, den we went for flag raising followed by the opening ceremony.

when mr sng was putting stuff into the time capsule, many got very emotional and we made a pact to go back to Dunman High in yr 2031 ( when we are 41 yrs old) on 31st March to see our past.

then, it dawned on us that all of us were yr 4s and alot of our frens would be leaving after this yr.

after the opening, we had lessons, i could not even listen to whatever the teachers were teaching. i just kept thinking about the choir concert and got really nervous. felt like puking the whole day.

den, we had rehearsals and all. soon, we had to dress up and make up. was very busy during that 1 hour given to us to do our stuff, haha..running around like a mad woman, kept perspiring, walked so fast people said i walk and look like "ah lian".
den our concert began.

there were many teachers and students, more audience than last yr. before our very first song, Salmo 150, we, the yr 4s( the graduating batch) got very emotional and a few even started to cry even before the concert started. we went around hugging each other and encouraging each other, saying jia you, shaking hands. now, it will just be a valuable part of my memory.

more details of the concert i will blog when i manage to load the pictures up. i cant find the camera cable at the moment.

at the end of th whole concert. we screamed like crazy, glad that we managed to pull off the show. well, i wouldn't say it was a good performance, neither will i say it was a bad performance. i think everyone did their best but i know alot of people were very very nervous, especially the sec4s . we really wanted to do a good show badly. it was our last performance together, we wunt do another concert together again. you may say, we still can come together and sing. but the feeling is just different, it will never be the same.

during this four years in choir, all the bonds i've made, all the friends i've known, all the memories i've shared, all the precious moments when we sang together beautifully as a team, i will really treasure it. thank you everyone for giving me an opportunity to know you, to have fun together.

i'm not really an emotional person but all these just bring tears to my eyes.
i should stop blogging.

to be continued...( some events happened at night but i've no mood to blog abt it now)