things are just going sooooo wrong man.
flunked my maths tests today, threw my chem prac away yesterday and my geog test on fri?? dun even wan to think about it.

amelia tan is seriously suffering from lack of sleep. although i try to keep my energy level high around my friends, when i'm home, i'm just like a walking zombie, unaware of evrything happening around me.
and i changed my PHONE!! it was my early brithday present from my family. love them to bits.
by the way, to remind those with short term memory... this is my wish list...(8th august ok!remember ah!)

1. W810i ( wish fulfilled!!=])
2. pencil case ( mine is like...urgh)
3. sling bag.( i like the nike rectangle wan..black is cool)
4. tickets to NDP (lol)

actually that's about all...hmm....din noe i had so little wishes..anyway, you get wad i mean hor(bhb)

haha... so exciting! a few more weeks and i'm 16!! but the only sad part is that my exam starts on the 21st august which means i have to study thru my bday..

sob, so sad. with my results liddat, i really start to worry for my end of years. i got more and more insecure as i get back my failing papers. one gets worse than the other.

dunno wad to do. sian.

just came back from the Choral Festival X concert at VCH. tired. still have to do Language Arts project. and i'm still bleeding over the 19.20 bucks that i spent on the taxi fare to VCH cuz of the stupid traffic jam caused by the stupid damn line of queueing taxis who blocked up the road. $19.20!! i can take to woodlands can. for your info, i stay in pasir ris and $15 bucks would normally be able to get me to VCH. wth.

well, comments about the choirs. they were not bad considering that VJ choir didn't join in the fest this yr. but they had the piedmont choir. They were super pro! oh my goodness..can never forget the soloists! they were so full of power and stamina! love it! oh, and when the SNYO came out, there was this shuai ge sitting on the outside playing the cello! oh, i love guys who can play music! i think guys who can play music 9esp strings!) have a certain kind of charisma in them. dunno how to express but they just have this charm when they show their stuff.. haiz, louis say he was at the backstage when we went there during interval but i missed it. sad man. haha, i was looking for shuai ges and louis was looking for chio bus den weirui kept saying she was the shuaiest.. LOL.

i think the opening choir made me a little disappointed, the piedmont choir was oh-my-freaking -goodness (especially their A Piece For Magic Strings and the soloists for the Missa Sti Aloysii), and the rest of the choir's standards were quite expected la. but i think for the drunken sailor song, intensity was there but it just somehow did not connect, lacked of the certain emotional feeling, kungala was not bad too.

but the festival combined choir 2, singing the (I Can Recall) Spain wan...how do i say?? the choir was ok but the soloists, especially those from the singaporean choirs...i think the mic was too close..every single detail could be heard. their breathing sounds, parts where they could not blend with each other and especially their singaporean accent which sound very ugly for such an English sound. audience could also distintly hear the flat tones here and there, and their voice just was not round enough for the song.

finally, the finale song. i think that the song is very nice. when everyone on stage sang it together with such passion and the njcsb playing with such vigour, i just had the feeling of how nice will it be if i were oso in ther, singing with evryone, ppl with the same passions as you. it's been a long time since i've sang with a choir and i kinda miss that feeling, when evryone gives their all to put up a good peroformance and perfect each song. when evryone sings together, i miss the feeling of being pushed to sing even better than wad i could and hearing the voices of evryone rising together with yours. i miss that magical moment. but hu noes how long will it be till i finally sing in a choir again?

oh, and i oso met yee chuin!! yay! 2 yrs no see.. lol. must get together one day man!! y-cube!! haha.. those were the days... rmb in the past when the three of us wanted to form our own band...but stil no plans yet.

okok. here's a ng video of Goong!! enjoy!hmm.. for details of what this scene is actually about, you have to watch the show!! the front part is in korean, dun undersatnd but the back part is chinese subbed so can understand their dialogue. joo ji hoon and yoon eun hye bicker over small matters like a real couple... so cute!! joo ji hoon very cute...haha, like a small child!

Happy Birthday Jing Hui!!!
sorry, haven got you your present cuz we could not find the time. paisei..anyway, still a very happy 16th bday to you!!

today was chem test. i actually ended the test feeling quite good u noe. i thot it was not too bad BUT after the test, i found out that it wasn't a sunday after all.

after school, ys and jw was teaching us how to dance the indian dance for tml audition.. lol.
so funny. i just found the video on youtube but wun post it yet.. haha.. keep in suspense!!
it was hell out of a time though.. the gals trying to dance as indianly as possible and the guys jumping around like monkeys at the back...
baa...

Happy Birthday Xumei!!

haha..i'm supposed to be studying for my chem test now but my parents just went out to fetch my sister home so i decided i shud do a bit of blogging.

today our school celebrated RACIAL HARMONY DAY!! yoke san, jie xin, jing wen, valerie, ai lyn, zi hui, chinyang and me wore traditional ethnic clothings to school. we're so on, lol.
well, this was the first time i actually wore ethinic clothings to school. in the past, i always thought of it as boring, troublesome and a total waste of time but actually, it's actually quite fun. haha, when we had trouble putting that thing on our fore head, den me and zihui de punjabi cannot buckle, us wearing the suits with sports shoes, trying to keep the scarf on our necks and all, i had quite alot of fun. =]

we took quite a number of photos too with ai lyn and jingwen's cam. we took with mr sng and mr feng kim hwa and accidentally skipped a little of feng ba's lessons..oops, sorry, din mean it.

after school, went to do some editing. yoke san and jing wen behind practising the teacher day dance so noisy... haha, den i cannot hear my film. but it seems interesting though (the dance i mean)
actually wanted go take a look at choir but din have the time...sorry peeps, another time i guess.
=]

today went to watch pirates of the caribbean ( pirates of the carry- Bean--as valerie would put it. lol). johnny depp is charming, orlando bloom is suave and keira knightley is so pretty.
anyway, my ratings of the show?? hmm, 4 out of 5 stars. the effects of the show is really amazing. the show still encomposes its usual sense of humour with a few funny scenes here and there which will really tickle you, but the plot now uncovers a greater sense of suspense. well, the ending is not really complete so one can anticipate for POTC 3. there were a few parts which i dun really understand, dat's why only 4 stars, but i guess i'll figure it out with the release of part 3.

anyway, the show is worth the watch to me and i think you all should go watch too...haha, i was so engrossed to the show, i even forgot to eat or drink during the movie. LOL.

love the swinging of the ball part, damn hilarious.those hu have watche will understand.=]

oh ya, after the credits, there is actually a short scene....oh my goodness, the credits was like never ending and after the credits, all i saw was just a short 2 seconds scene of the dog becoming god of the tribe and going to be roasted. O.o

but POTC has always been a favourite movie of mine and i will continue to wait for its next release. YAY!
chem test is in like another 3 days and i haven started. as usual.

just went to have my haircut today. i think it's a little too short and monday's class photo taking! oh no....sob, should have cut on like tues? too late now, i guess.

i've been thinking about lots of things recently. about how hypocritical humans can be and changes that can be happening between friendships.

first things first, if you cannot accept our actions and doings, why still stay with the group? if you dun like it, dun participate. simple. makes your life and our life easier.

well, it's probably just me or something. it's just that relationships between friends just dun seem as close as they once were before. we still sit around and talk crap but everything's just different. it's like we're suddenly missing something out in our lifes. it's a queer feeling. a feeling which makes me feel insecure, a feeling like everyone's gonna leave each other one day.

but sometimes i think again. why bother. as long as i dun probe deeper, everything is just gonna remain as it is now.

lots of ppl must be wondering what is lazy pig amelia doing, staying up till this late hour at night.
haiz, do you think i really want to?
well, dear amelia here has decided that she will be studious and work hard for EOYs. yeah right, as if.
i'm just staying up cuz i have like 6 projects to complete??! i am so going to die from lack of sleep.
anyway, while waiting for ai lyn's pics to be sent to me, i decided to be a magician and create a blue moon.
my mum just came in just now and tell me that they all love me.=] so sweet. i think i must have really been worrying them this past few days. but anyway, it's still nice to know that ppl out there love you and care for you. thank you.

hmm, at the same time, my mum also told me that she will be stopping all my ybc activities for this period of time till i am really free and no more burden or worries den i can go back to join that activities. sorry, guys, probably wunt be joining you all till like september, october?? but if i can find the time, i will go join the service. haha. good luck to Sr. Weng.
if i can find time, i will go for the chapter activities too. =]

actually, these few days, it's really very tiring cuz we're trying to rush all our Language arts stuff and geog reports, blah blah.. there's really not much time which we friend can hang out together and just simply have fun. during recess, some stay in class to do their work, some have to go find teacher, everyone just does not seem to have the time for anyone. in the end, it's only a few ppl who go down together for breaks.

well, today, i guess it's cuz evryone just suddenly felt like going down for break ba. haha. all of us were cracking jokes downstairs and things seem to be back to the past where we just came together, talked, crack lame jokes and laugh like nobody's business, nonchalant about other people's "wad's wrong with them' stares. just like the good ol' days.

i like this kind of feeling. throughout the whole day, the whole class was like super high. lessons were so fun.

this is the reason schools are fun. if school life can't be like that, wad's the point?

YAY! got more ppl to start liking goong and kim jung hoon! LOLs.

this past few weeks, for dunno what reason, i have been in a really foul mood. beginning to think that the ppl around me all seem very fake. i dunno why. i dun mean to.
it's just that when someone approaches me for something or simply just a simple talk, i just tend to shrug it off, give a pissed look and sound irritated.
it's like.. a natural reaction.

i noe that other ppl dun mean to disturb me and they dunno i'm in a foul mood. basically, the real reason lies with me. i just wanna be alone, keep to myself and be isolated.
weird rite?
though i may seem like wild, crazy, funny and cheerful, sometimes, i just really wanna hide myself and keep to my safe little corner. i dun wanna be disturbed.
and when someone tries to open my door, i turn nasty.

am i falling into depression? i can just dun feel like talking to anyone at all for a whole day and just do my own things.

my parents think that i am weird this few days and thought i had plms. the thing is, i cant even think of any plm that i may be facing. i just feel like ignoring ppl.

prob due to the lack of slp i guess.

lots of work overdued piling up.

feeling small.